The weekend approacheth
Mentally exhausted.
Physically exhausted.
Emotionally exhausted.
Physically getting sick.
Olinwise sooooooo much work and so little motivation.
I have recently been reminded that I have a hard time storing relaxation energy. Contrary to my previous conjectures I can relax and often do so having conversations with people, reading a book, or playing a game. The problem is that that relaxed feeling dissipates within a relatively short period of time, so I return to the drained/burned-out stage far too quickly. Not particularly sure if there is a solution, but it is definitely irritating.
In other news, my mom sent a shipment of old Nintendo games to Olin so in my "spare" time I think I might start Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask again...also ordered my own personal copy of Civ IV this week - it comes out on Monday the 24th which is also GRE day...I haven't so much as touched a book for that yet...I guess I need to study for the GRE, write a market research plan, and an AHS Capstone outline all this week...should be interesting. Frances and I are also going to a Yale Business School open house - I'll be interested to see if I'm as wowed as I have been by both HBS and Stanford thus far.
A group of us went out to Saraceno in the North End for a SAC Kick Out tonight. The food was expensive and bland and the waiter was pretty irritated that we weren't buying wine and thus driving up the bill. I'm sticking with Sweet Basil from now on when I do Italian food in Boston. It's good and not too expensive.
When I got back, the temptation to simply go to bed was strong, but it occurred to me that I hadn't read any of Comic Book Club's collection since last May, so I decided to do some recon and read a little for fun (since I'm having trouble thinking of another novel to read now that I finished the B5 book Joy loaned me). On the way I ran into Chandra laying in Alex's hammock which resides in the 3rd floor lounge...we ended up chating about random things from when we were kids (elementary school era) and a little about the dreaded "future". I realized today that I really do feel like I need to know the rest of my life now and that I really only get one choice for my life after Olin. I'm horribly afraid of failing to do anything substantive with my life...Thus it must be perfect, thus it is daunting, thus I avoid thinking/planning. I really need a vacation.
So the debate for the next 22 hours is whether I want to spend my Spring break down south building homes for Habitat's Collegiate Challenge with an Olin group or whether I want to use that time for job hunting/relaxing at home.
Returning to the evening...after a couple of other people cycled through Sarah Zwicker came by and was interested in watching Babylon 5, which seemed like a good fit for my mood so we watched the Episode where Garibaldi turned on Sheridan; it was good...now I want to finish watching Season 4 which is less good. I also secured books 5-8 of the Ultimates 2 series so I think I'm going to read those in a few minutes and then go to bed.
Last thought was that we had our first telecon for the StartingBloc Boston Program Board. It was interesting and I think will definitely be a worthwhile experience. One of the other members is an MIT grad from Portland. Pacific Northwest represent!
Anyhow, I need to relax and go to bed. It's going to be a busy week.
Physically exhausted.
Emotionally exhausted.
Physically getting sick.
Olinwise sooooooo much work and so little motivation.
I have recently been reminded that I have a hard time storing relaxation energy. Contrary to my previous conjectures I can relax and often do so having conversations with people, reading a book, or playing a game. The problem is that that relaxed feeling dissipates within a relatively short period of time, so I return to the drained/burned-out stage far too quickly. Not particularly sure if there is a solution, but it is definitely irritating.
In other news, my mom sent a shipment of old Nintendo games to Olin so in my "spare" time I think I might start Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask again...also ordered my own personal copy of Civ IV this week - it comes out on Monday the 24th which is also GRE day...I haven't so much as touched a book for that yet...I guess I need to study for the GRE, write a market research plan, and an AHS Capstone outline all this week...should be interesting. Frances and I are also going to a Yale Business School open house - I'll be interested to see if I'm as wowed as I have been by both HBS and Stanford thus far.
A group of us went out to Saraceno in the North End for a SAC Kick Out tonight. The food was expensive and bland and the waiter was pretty irritated that we weren't buying wine and thus driving up the bill. I'm sticking with Sweet Basil from now on when I do Italian food in Boston. It's good and not too expensive.
When I got back, the temptation to simply go to bed was strong, but it occurred to me that I hadn't read any of Comic Book Club's collection since last May, so I decided to do some recon and read a little for fun (since I'm having trouble thinking of another novel to read now that I finished the B5 book Joy loaned me). On the way I ran into Chandra laying in Alex's hammock which resides in the 3rd floor lounge...we ended up chating about random things from when we were kids (elementary school era) and a little about the dreaded "future". I realized today that I really do feel like I need to know the rest of my life now and that I really only get one choice for my life after Olin. I'm horribly afraid of failing to do anything substantive with my life...Thus it must be perfect, thus it is daunting, thus I avoid thinking/planning. I really need a vacation.
So the debate for the next 22 hours is whether I want to spend my Spring break down south building homes for Habitat's Collegiate Challenge with an Olin group or whether I want to use that time for job hunting/relaxing at home.
Returning to the evening...after a couple of other people cycled through Sarah Zwicker came by and was interested in watching Babylon 5, which seemed like a good fit for my mood so we watched the Episode where Garibaldi turned on Sheridan; it was good...now I want to finish watching Season 4 which is less good. I also secured books 5-8 of the Ultimates 2 series so I think I'm going to read those in a few minutes and then go to bed.
Last thought was that we had our first telecon for the StartingBloc Boston Program Board. It was interesting and I think will definitely be a worthwhile experience. One of the other members is an MIT grad from Portland. Pacific Northwest represent!
Anyhow, I need to relax and go to bed. It's going to be a busy week.
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